REALLY rough day today. At 16 months old, the Rascal still isn’t sleeping through the night. And last night was the worst night we’ve had in a long time. So, I’m half asleep writing this post. And my heart IT HURTS.

He woke up shrieking a few times last night and wouldn’t stop. I even brought him to bed with me, and he kept shrieking. He’s continued to shriek most of the day. I’m pretty sure he’s teething….

This….

…is a sweet, but rare, vision….

Since 5am this morning, he’s been crying for me. He wants me to hold him constantly. I even took him grocery shopping, and the little dude wouldn’t stay in the shopping cart (which is usually a favourite activity of his); he shrieked until I picked him up and carried him up and down the aisles. It was terrible.

It’s really getting to me. My heart, Gorgeouses…, it hurts!

It’s been hurting a lot lately. Not only do I have an extremely unhappy Rascal, but I’m now teaching yoga at the same time as my little Monkey has her dance class…. No more watching with hand over heart (and other hand holding camera) at the window….

And, I had such HIGH HOPES of being a STAGE MOM….

I’m going to miss all this…THIS….

I just have to keep reminding myself that I’m teaching yoga, really, so that I can buy HER more clothes — and organic food…. I work hard for the money, you know. And, it’s not like yoga gigs are easy to come by.

But, MY HEART IT HURTS!

Anyway….

Good thing I went to yoga class today. I was exhausted and stressed out from the Rascal’s shrieking, and in desperate need of PERSONAL SPACE.

So, I went to yoga about 15 minutes early. I grabbed a blanket and lay down in Savasana. My heart was heavy. Could hardly relax. But, eventually, I surrendered to gravity and “dropped down.”

Next thing I knew…. The teacher was talking. I opened my eyes and everyone was doing their poses! Yes. I’m Haley-O, and…

I FELL ASLEEP IN YOGA CLASS

The class started at 10am, and I woke up at 10:30. There you have it. I’m a big DORK.

But, I woke right up, got right into the class, and yoga did its magic. I left feeling happy and rejuvenated. As my brillers teacher told us today, just BEING AROUND yoga (even if you are ASLEEP) is healing. Everything in the room is positive. Everything that’s said about the body is positive. Which is why, I give you moi. Bending over backwards. A hard pose, yes. But, I’m blessed with freakish flexibility. So, don’t go trying this at home!

Yes, finally, I’ve lost enough pregnancy weight to feel O.K. posting pics of me doing freakish yoga poses for your entertainment (and, let’s face it, for Bloggies votes — I mean, of course, c’mon, who are we kidding!? You asked for BRIBES! I give you BRIBE!)

Even though yoga class was bliss today, my heart’s been heavy ever since. It’s hard to see your child in constant pain. It’s also hard to give him the attention he demands when I have another child who needs me, too…

Love….
xo Haley-O

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