I’m feeling very ANGRY today. Yes, ANGER is the dominant emotion. And, I would hate to be the child of someone who is ANGRY. So, the kids are safely tucked in their beds — far away from my WRATH. GRRRR!

Why angry, you ask? TWO WORDS:

HALLOWEEN TREATS.

LOOK AT THEM!!!

We have THREE BOXES just like this. And, knowing our neighbourhood, that won’t be enough. We’ll be out of them by 7pm….

Sigh, anyway. They’re making my blood boil — sitting in the foyer like that — because I CAN’T EAT THEM. This is one of those times where I just HATE my oversized compassion muscle. In every single chocolate bar in that box, there are “Milk Solids.” Why couldn’t I have gone vegan AFTER Halloween?

I’m basically stuck watching everyone eat chocolate. Salivating, smelling the chocolate, getting by on RICE MILK with Chocolate Nestlé Nesquik Syrup, which PETA has listed on their “ACCIDENTALLY VEGAN” page…. But, seriously, ew. It just doesn’t compare to KIIIIIIIIIT KAAAAAAAAT…. Oh well. These things are worth sacrificing, in the end. And, imagine all the calories I’m saving. And, the cows. Beautiful, beloved cows.

Now, I’m popping popcorn…. And, I burnt my fingers on the pot. See, the Universe doesn’t like it when I’m angry…. No really. Whenever I get angry, MORE annoying carp happens to make me even MORE angry…. It’s a vicious cycle. Whereas, if I just sit down for a bit and BREATHE and, say, enjoy my popcorn, things seem to turn around. Here’s hoping.

Mmm. Good popcorn. I’m not even thinking about chocolate anymore. And, I’m now only a wee bit angry. Because ate a TON of popcorn….

Seriously, though, I deserved that popcorn. I had a rough day. Motherhood. It’s hard. I have NO time for myself. And, I’m having an issue with that right now….

When I don’t get enough time for myself, I definitely start to get ANGRY. I WORKED with my kids (and it IS work — hardest work of your life) from 7 this morning until 8:30 this evening. I didn’t get my half-hour lunch break or my 15 minute coffee breaks. I got NOTHING. I’m actually thankful that my friend Court gave me the wrong directions to her house because kids in the car for A WHOLE HOUR? Strapped to their seats? Plugged in Ipod? And, WHAT YOU HAVE IS BLISS.

It’s sad that the only time I have to myself is in the car. But, it’s the sacrifice I make.


Cooking with two toddlers at your feet? NOT BLISS. BRUTAL!

More sacrifices. No wonder I’m ANGRY. Sacrifice is my middle name. Actually, it’s Rachel, but, you know….

Then? Josh-O gets home and decides to carve the most ELABORATE PUMPKINS in the country. So, guess who has to bathe the kids whilst the ARTIST creates?

He DID do a pretty good job….

…on ONE of the pumpkins. The other was a flop. This?

…was supposed to look like THIS CAT….

I told him when he started that the cat one was WAY too ambitious. But, whatevs. He tried. Had the best fatherly intentions. He’s a good guy, that Josh-O. He knew I was tired and angry (umm, ANYONE would know). So, he cleaned the kitchen, and the dining room floor — under Rascal’s chair. We had spaghetti. BRUTAL clean-up.

In addition to being angry, I was very NERVOUS tonight because my cousin Miles was in the bottom three of SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE CANADA. I knew he would be because I wasn’t wild AT ALL about the West Coast Swing routine he was given this week…. Check it!

I am a huge Rex Harrington fan, by the way…. LOVE!

Anyway, Miles danced for his life tonight and did AWESOME (I’ll get you the video asap)…. He’s an AMAZING popper. I couldn’t be prouder. LOVE! His partner Lara was also safe tonight. And, she’s really proven herself. So, we’re good!

Hopefully, he’ll get Hip Hop next week….

HAPPY HALLOWEEN, Gorgeouses! I hope you dress up and eat a lot of POPCORN…. And, hey, winners of the Halloween Contest are announced over at GOODIES. There’s also proof there of what a VERY BAD MOOD I was in this evening. It’s a very unflattering video. As usual, now that you mention it. Must get Josh to try a different angle….

xo Haley-O

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