I work way to hard on this thing sometimes. And, why? For what? I even forgo plans sometimes because I have to WRITE ME BLOG. You know it’s bad when….

So, I came THIS close to throwing in the towel this weekend. I thought, why do I need this? Why do I need all the pressure? And, I have no desire to be a celebrity, so what’s the point? Maybe I should just delete all my archives and call it a day, I thought to myself.

I thought, I’ll call my mom and ask her what she thinks. I’ll call Lolo, Erna…. But, I didn’t. I waited. And, eventually the feeling passed. I became excited again. I became excited when I saw this picture and wanted to write about it….

…and then I saw this picture and thought about how much the Gorgeouses who HATE CATS will LOVE this picture of Minden eating chicken (you can thank me in the comments):

Usually I have BLOG-TERMINATING thoughts like this when I’ve hit a major writing block. And, I usually hit writing blocks when I’m miserable — and then I get even more miserable, because I can’t even do what I LOVE, and then I want to just give everything up and crawl under my bed….


It’sgrandma gets concerned when I’m miserable. But, seriously? ANYONE would be miserable on as little sleep as I’VE HAD in the past 11 months since Rascal was born. And, when I don’t sleep, I get very ANGRY. Anger is, like, the worst, most toxic emotion because it affects everyone, and it morphs quickly into depression. That’s sort of where I’ve been hovering for the past week or so. Tired. Angry. Depressed. FUN! Beautiful good times….

But, last night, I FINALLY got some coveted REM sleep. HAAAALLELUJAH! And, it’s like I’ve been REBORN. I’M ALIVE AGAIN. Well, we’re not perfect. But, a good night sleep made a big difference.

And, I’m still here. Still blogging away because it’s, for whatever reason, who I am. Even if peeps who loathe me read this, it’s okay. We should all be so transparent…. I think Alanis Morissette said that in an interview once: that her goal was to be as transparent as possible. I think I finally get that. It’s a good goal. It’s perhaps THE GOAL. Be who you are, EH?

So, right now. What am I doing. I’m watching the premiere of Entourage and NOT digging Vinny with a beard. And, I’m writing. I’m taking it easy, though. I’m not writing The Great Canadian Novel every night here, right? And, IF I want a girl’s night out, or to take an evening Yoga class, no blogging’s going to stop me. I can only do what I can in my teeny tiny realm of sanity. There’s really never any time — at least these days. There are books calling me to read them, yoga classes, monkeys, bffs, dates with the hubs…. Wednesday’s my birthday, Gorgeouses? And, I’m GOING OUT!

Yes, Wednesday’s my birthday. And, this, year 34, is going to be more relaxed. The only thing in my way EVER is me — a little meditation told me just that the other day.

So, cheers to relaxation and meditation and cats and blogging and Gorgeouses and to REM sleep tonight! Yeeeeaaaahhhh!

Cue the cheesy….

Tomorrow, I’m off to a yoga class at a studio I haven’t been to since I became preggers with the monkey…. It’ll be very emotional for me. A new beginning.

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