Two words: mor. ning.
I used to want everyone to think I was perfect. I think you call that perfectionism….
Just ask Erna. We recently figured this whole thing out (recently being, like, 6 years ago): I was busy pretending I was perfect and she was busy thinking I was perfect and, thus, feeling bad about her own “imperfections.” Nice. No. Not a good situation.
She’d end up resenting me. And, all along she was so much closer to “perfection” than I was. I walked around with this mask on, and she was as transparent and authentic as can be. Beautiful.
I’m not perfect. I’m not perfect. I’m not perfect.
Mor. Ning.
Morning. Sounds an awful lot like “mourning.” Curious thing, that….
How to wake up in the morning to HYPER TODDLER CRAZINESS all around you and be that PERFECT MOTHER you expect yourself to be right then and there?
Me in the morning? Me MOTHERING in the morning? Not perfect. Nightmare.
Moody, Grouchy, Irritable, Angry, GROG, Scary….
In the morning I’m WAY closer to HORRIBLE MOTHER than to PERFECT MOTHER — on the scale of horrible-mom-to-perfect-mom.
Maybe my new binge-free diet will help?
Maybe going to bed early will help?
Maybe a full on LOBOTOMY???
Certainly, PINK PINK PINK and PRINCESSES PRINCESSES PRINCESSES does not help….
…certainly not first thing in the morning.
porter said, August 25th, 2008 at 11:26 pm
I gotta tell ya, you must be pretty freakin perfect if you let your daughter wear that lovely number! Seriously, you permitted a gal to feel absolutely beautiful…how many women feel that way in the morning?
BlondeBlogger said, August 25th, 2008 at 11:32 pm
I hear you. I am SO not a morning person! Now that my kids are older (and are night owls themselves) and I homeschool, we get to adjust our schedule to meet that internal cicadian (sp?) rhythym.
erika said, August 25th, 2008 at 11:44 pm
I feel ya. All I do on Saturday and Sunday is turn on the tv for Punkin. Two hours later I feel like a total failure and it forces me to actually begin to think about functioning. You wanna know how many times he eats cold pizza for breakfast? Never mind, I don’t want to admit it!
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Kristen said, August 26th, 2008 at 12:15 am
Yeah, not a morning person either and now, apparently I am not an afternoon or evening person either. I have been seriously ignoring my kids for multiple naps and letting the big ones look out for the little ones. When I do interact with them, I am grumpy. Poor kids.
But really, kids really don’t expect perfection from us and they are always ready to forgive our misteps and make it better with a sticky kiss.
I like this post from you, it sounds like you are being a bit easier on yourself. Isn’t imperfection awesome!
By the way, I seem to remember you having some big boob nursing bra recommendations. Can you help a girl out? Everything I tried out was either teensy or to stretchy.
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Cyndi said, August 26th, 2008 at 8:37 am
Well, I just put my daughter on the bus and this morning was full of grumpy-ness. To her and my husband. Oops! Thanks for pointing out my imperfections.
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Nadine said, August 26th, 2008 at 8:56 am
Nobody’s perfect. But you sound like you know yourself pretty well and I believe that’s a characteristic only the awesomest (is that a word
people have. And we love you just the way you are! 
Nadines last blog post..The day my firstborn streaked in the Queen’s backyard
Kirsten said, August 26th, 2008 at 9:47 am
I have to say I can relate on the pink, pink, pink, and princess…… issue. I was such a tomboy as a kid (and pretty much as an adult, too), but my daughter morphed into a 4 year old who only wants to wear dresses and who describes clothes I pick for her as “too boyish.” Where did she come from?
LAVENDULA said, August 26th, 2008 at 10:24 am
oh Haley not one of us is perfect. do you want stinkerbell? OMG that little darling diva princessa is driving me crazy! whining demanding tantrummy little devil! where did my sweet happy singing little angel go? and how have i been dealing with her? not good. i never knew my voice could get that loud! talk about bad parenting.and her clothes don’t get me started!
Renee said, August 26th, 2008 at 10:25 am
Well no wonder you’re so warped…you’re trying to be perfect. There is no such thing as perfect, cuz when you think you’re getting close something else will come along to remind you how HUMAN you are. HUMANS are not perfect. Deal!
Renees last blog post..Tornado!
Beck said, August 26th, 2008 at 10:34 am
Oh, I hear you. I’ve never striven for perfection – largely because I never thought I could even appear to be – but I still spent all of yesterday vaguely stressed out that I’d posted a picture of my grungy cutting board. Good people have unstained cutting boards, you see.
Becks last blog post..A Pot Pourri Of Stupid Stuff
ali said, August 26th, 2008 at 11:01 am
that’s the beauty of parenting. anyone who tells you she is perfect is a total LIAR. we’re all in the same boat – doing the best that we can
mornings suck.
the end.
alis last blog post..five things making me happy right this very second…
Teena in Toronto said, August 26th, 2008 at 11:23 am
I’m soooooooo not a morning person!
Teena in Torontos last blog post..Spilly Pants is a pervert
Chantal said, August 26th, 2008 at 11:30 am
Haley, have you ever heard of EFT. it won’t help with morning (actually now that I think of it, it could). If you are interested let me know. i am using it with my son who is very anxious and it is helping.
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Lori said, August 26th, 2008 at 10:19 pm
I’m not perfect either…isn’t it refreshing to be able to admit that. On the road to becoming authentic, a person has to step off the perfectionism trail. I think it is awesome that your eyes are opening up to so many of these things…it’s freeing.
Any yeah I don’t understand the pink, princess, dresses thing either…a couple of my girls were that way and it drove this former tom boy crazy…but then I had my own tom boy and she drove me crazy too for a time.
And I am definetly not a morning person!
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