We’re not going to talk about how perpetually disappointed I am in myself to a point where it’s SICKENING already. ‘Cuz, you know, the more you practice yoga and self-study, etc., the more you become aware of your thought patterns — particularly the negative ones, ones like “I’m so fat” (one of our most popular items), “I’m so tired” and “why’d I eat that?” Welcome to my internal workings! Now THAT’s not too personal or anything. But, you know I’m battling my serious pregnancy weight. And, the more I battle, the harder the battle gets, and the more self-destructive my thoughts become as I lose the battle lose the battle lose the battle again. (And, we better get off this discussion because we don’t want a pity party in the comment section…. HOLLAAHHHH!)

But, but, BUT, the first step to feeling better and becoming a better person (and, in turn, a better mommy — because it’s so much about that) is BECOMING AWARE of the negative thought patterns. Because once you become aware of said patterns, you can start doing something about them. (AS Rascal sits here chewing on a cord, bless his lil heart he loves those cords, and my pinkberry case…, and Mum-Mums…thank GOD for MUM-MUMS!…and cords).

Sprinkled among the NEGATIVE THOUGHTS against which I battled, battled, battled this weekend were SUCH moments of peace and of joy and GENUINE GLEE (oooo, good word!)…. So, let’s focus on those, shall we?

Minden on my bed in his RIDICULOUS pose….


…Eeeeeeeeee! Oh, HILARITY, THY NAME IS MINDEN-IN-THIS-POSE!

Rascal enjoying the sling at the giant book store (can you tell I love the giant bookstore?)….

Monkey riding her l’il princess bike….

Monkey SWIMMING….

…and making new friends….

I just sat there, in yoga lotus pose (i.e., cross-legged), watching the monkey splash about and listening to an independent artist someone recommended to me, which added a surreal aspect to this adorable day. It was pretty wild, actually…. Amazing how music can, like, season your day — spice it, sweeten it up, intensify it?

My blissful state of tranquility was, of course, interrupted by “MOMMA, I HAVTA PEE!” and a trip to a disgusting park washroom YECH!

In the space of a minute, my day went from totally tranquil to totally SH*T!

It wasn’t so bad. When we returned to the pool, I kept the earphones off because monkey was playing with some older girls and I wanted to hear EVERYTHING (’cuz it’s so freaking hilarious). For some reason, she kept saying “It’s up to me and you!” OVER AND OVER AGAIN! I have NO idea where that came from. The BEST, though, was when she ran up to me and said:

“I’m playing with my friends, Momma! I belong with them!”

How bizarre and brillers is that?! (As monkey would say,) I LLLLLLLLOVE IT!

So, it was a great weekend. A lot to be thankful for. Like a body. A HEALTHY body. I may not LOVE what it looks like right now (used as I am to a MUCH smaller frame), but it’s what I’ve got. And, GARSH DANGIT, I’m thankful.

Changing the thought patterns, one thought at a time…. LAAAAA!

Also, am SO THANKFUL for NEW BRAS! A WAIST! I have a WAIST!